I went to the cardiologist yesterday. I wasn't much pleased with the nurse-practitioner that they set me up with. The doctor I liked left, for Tennessee according to my internet stalking skills. That's a little too far to drive, even though I thought she was really good. Anyway, although the NP had a good grasp of my SVT issues, her approach was the standard "take blood pressure medication which doesn't actually address the problem or have heart surgery which will cure it." While I know an ablation would fix the problem (in theory), there are 2 things holding me back. First, if this didn't show up until I was about 40, how do I know that another pathway won't misfire once I take care of this one? And second, it's heart surgery. That's inherently hazardous. But I did make an appointment to talk to the electrocardiologist. We'll see if he can persuade me that it's in my best interests to get the problem fixed. Then, of course, I had another incident last night. It was relatively short-lived; only 4 hours this time.
While I was in the office, I was reviewing my records of incidents. I didn't remember having one the day before you died. The only time I told you about the incidents was the one time I had you take me to the hospital, after 36 hours of palpitations. I probably should have shared the incident on March 22nd - maybe that would have changed your mind about leaving. Of course, discovering that made me cry in the doctor's office. Always my favorite thing - being emotional in front of other people.
S's birthday is on Monday. She's turning 16. I know that was an important time in your life - your love of vehicles of all sorts was legendary. And at 16, you gained access to owning anything you could pay for. I wish you were here to share that with S. She's so excited to get her driver's license and has been pestering me about it at least weekly. She already calls the Altima her car. Then she asks when I'm going to get a new car so she can have the Maxima. I think I'll pick up a cookie cake for her once I drop her off for work today. We have some plans, so we'll see how we get through this weekend...