I'm watching a movie tonight. I tried to get S to join me, but it's rated R and has nudity. She wandered off to talk to her friend on the phone. You would have been bored by the movie. Now that I can watch whatever I want...I don't want to watch much of anything.
S and I have been watching a show lately. Somewhere in the middle, maybe the end of the 3rd season, the main character's husband died. I almost burst into tears. I remember how you would always say "Are you crying?" during sad movies - and you would laugh at me. It was rare that I was crying, though. I might tear up for a moment, but that was about it. You never cried at movies. You only cried a couple times, when talking about your family. I wish you hadn't held so much inside.
I guess yesterday was the 8th anniversary of Robin Williams' death. He was kind of a touchstone for you. You met him when he came to your camp in Afghanistan. I put the photo collage that my brother-in-law made for you with the autograph and your photos with him on our bedroom wall. You were very upset when he died. And then you went ahead and duplicated his manner of death. It's hard for me to hear mention of him because of that. And yet he was one of my favorite performers.
Anyway, the movie is bad, and I'm watching it anyway. Nothing is as terrible as that Chloe Grace Moretz WWII movie that we had to turn off. Maybe the latest Matrix movie will be better. But I doubt it.
Love,
A
Deep and enduring relationships can end up as so many triggers when a loss has occurred. Abiding with you.
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